My 11 week old sweet baby girl. Tomorrow is the day I have been dreading for months. The day I have to leave my sweet baby girl and go back to the real world. Jared will have her at home by himself for the first time (for the whole day anyway). My emotions have been a wreck. All afternoon I kept trying to do things to prepare, but everything I did reminded me that I would not be with her and that made me cry. Silly things like putting stuff in a purse-I have used her diaper bag as my purse for the past 11 weeks and didn't want to think about her stuff needing to be separate from mine. I know that we will all be fine and I am really not trying to be dramatic here. I have so very much to be thankful for and I don't forget that for a minute. I just really had no idea how hard this would be. As I type, she is sleeping across my chest. Hmmmm.....anybody think she will sleep in her own bed tonight??? We would so appreciate some little prayers for all three of us tomorrow.
I am very anxious about going back to work. I am planning to continue breastfeeding which brings a whole new set of challenges in my day. It is important to me though and I am going to do my best to keep it up. I am anxious about returning to my job that has gone on without me for a few months now. I am nervous about being able to keep my mind on my job when it really wants to be somewhere else. But, I am hopeful that I will be so busy getting caught up, that the day will go fast so that I can be back with my baby girl. It is going to be a big adjustment for all of us.
I have some big plans for working out this new mommy & wife/work role. I am going to try them out this week and plan to post on how it all works out. Everyone has said that the key is organization, so I have menu planned for this week and divided out house chores over all of the days. I want to make the most of my time that I have because I want to spend as much time as possible with my little girl and my hubby. So...I am signing off to do just that!
4 comments:
Good Luck! I know it's hard to return to work. My first child was 4 months when I went back and it takes awhile to get used to. But you are very right in thinking the days go so fast when you are busy catching up! It's also nice that your daughter will be with family. That's good bonding time for them as well!
Praying for you tomorrow. I know your day will be tough, but you can do it. So glad you know that your little one will be with daddy tomorrow.
Good luck going back to work! I'll be praying for you throughout the day! You can do it! I know you can!
You'll do great, and just remember, your kids won't remember how neat your house was or whether or not you dusted or vacuumed....so if you have to put off cleaning to baby cuddle...go right ahead and do it!
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